Taeyang ~ I Need a Girl (Dance Ver.) [MV] [ENG SUB]

I don't care

I Can't, I Just Surrender That Matter To You, You Must Help Me...

Dear Lord,
Once upon a time, I ever said to You that to be able to put all the pieces back to its place would be difficult. I simply can't forget everything.. And start it on a white paper.. Once a paper is crumpled, you hardly make it back to a smooth one.

I forgot when I wrote this..
But, YOU did help me. Thank you!! It's really amazing how you manage to help me.. Here's the story..

That's the first time I joined choir since Why didn't ask me to come to her house on Ko Rob' bday.. Coincidently, We--I mean, Why and I--came to C Ver's house at the same time. Yup, I felt a bit clumsy.. We talked abt general things...

When both of us passed C Ver's garage and were about to go upstair, I heard that voice.. Hihihihihi.. Quite loud.. Spontaneously, I stopped and turned back and looked at Why. Through my eyes I asked her whether she heard what I heard or not. She answered me with her stares. That answer somehow relieved me. It meant that I was not the only one who heard that voice. That voice came from behind the car. Somehow I wanted to inspect, but then I denied that urge and hurried going upstairs. "Come on, Why!"

Till now I still have no idea whose voice I heard at that time. Hahaahaha.. But that moment somehow made my conversation with Why more relaxed and open... MAYBE THAT'S YOUR WAY TO HELP US GETTING CLOSER AGAIN... THANK YOU, LORD!! ;DDD

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The quickest way to receive love is to give. The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly. And the best way to keep love is to give it wings. Good night everyone.. ^^

God answers prayers in a way He knows what you truly deserve. Have faith and always be thankful! #ihatequotes

Try your BEST! And if someone can't appreciate that, it's their fault. Not YOURS.

There's always a right person for you. Sometimes you search in the wrong place. That's why you can't find one. -@WilzKanadi

In order to be remembered, you have to do something unforgettable

...........(¯`?´¯) Listen and Silent are two words with same alphabet
..........(¯` (♥) ´¯)
............(_.?._) and are very important for Friendship because
.(¯`?´¯).....(\ /)...(¯`?´¯)
(¯` (♥) ´¯)*( . .).(¯` (♥) ´¯) only a True friend can listen to you when
...(_.?._),c('')('')..(_.?._)
.......\¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯/ you are silent.
........¯\¯¯¯¯¯¯¯/¯
.......... \___ /

On this day, God wants you to know ... that you always have one last resort. When nothing else works, surrender to God, and let your faith carry you through.

Jenset @YS

Prens, jenset di pabrik belakang pabrikku terbakar.... Yah, untung semuanya baik2 saja, soalnya posisi genset itu kan deket ma 2 kilang solar...
Ceritanya begini, tadi siang sesudah istirahat siang, salah satu temanku mendengar bunyi sirene mobil PMK yang sangat keras dan dekat. Kantorku ada di lantai 2, jadi dari kacanya bisa langsung melihat ke depan pabrik... Temanku langsung njumbul sewaktu melihat lho, mobilnya masuk halaman pabrik ku?? Kabagku langsung meminta info dari personalia, apakah yang terjadi??
Ternyata Jenset pabrik belakang terbakar karena terlalu panas... Sewaktu pulang, baru aku mendengar ceritanya secara menyeluruh... Ada hal yang menarik di sini, soalnya reaksi setiap orang itu bisa beraneka ragam... makanya mau kushare...
1. CEO perusahaan belakang kantorku berjuang mematikan api kebakaran dengan semangat '45. Dia melepas bajunya dan menggunakannya untuk penutup hidung, kemudian mencoba memadamkan api di garis depan (dg ote2.. )
2. Seorang staff admin yang duduk d pabrik belakang tidak bener2 mengerti apa yang terjadi.. bahkan tidak tahu kapan mobil PMK itu masuk pabrik... Dia baru menyadari apa yang terjadi setelah banyak orang berkumpul untuk memadamkan api...
3. Sebelumnya, kita sempat menghubungi PMK, seorang petugas PMK menjwab begini: Petugasnya masih istirahat. @.@
4. Seorang staff personalia ditengah kegentingan itu semua, di akhir acara masih sempat berpose dengan mobil PMK... hahahaha...
Ya, thank You, Lord, apinya cepat padam, dan semua selamat... Untung apinya juga tidak menjalar ke atap, atau menjalar ke samping2nya, benar2 tidak?? ak bisa mbayangin bila apinya pakai menjalar ke mana-mana, kita kan pabrik plastik, semua bahan bisa terrbakar, dekat kilang bahan bakar pula.. dan api bakal susah dipadamkan...

Thank You!! ;)

Lost, but Found

Yup, 9 Oktober lalu aku membeli baju untuk temanku yang ultah, tapi benar2 membuat hatiku mau copot.. Memang sikap pelupa mu harus diperbaiki, Phanili... Hehehe...

Sbelumnya aku sudah mendapat bajunya, 2 lembar, tapi kok warnanya tidak cerah ya? Aku tidak puas, jadi sewaktu berkeliling, aku masih mencari2 baju yang lain...
Sampai di toko H&K, aku melihat baju warna hitam yang cerah.. Aku sreg dengan yang ini.. Setelah berunding dengan mamaku, mamaku bilang gapapa, baju 2 tadi ditukarkan saja dengan yang seukuran dengan adikku... OKE, Sip!!

Setelah membayar baju hitam itu, aku dan mamaku meninggalkan toko H&K itu. Saat itulah, baru aku sadar kok aku tidak membawa apa2 ya?? Aku langsung kembali ke toko itu lagi. Mamaku mengikuti di belakangku.
"Ada kantong plastik putih tidak tertinggal disini?" Aku bertanya pada pelayan toko yang menemani aku tadi. Soalnya aku ingat jelas saat aku memilih-milih baju tadi, aku meletakkan kantong itu di atas tumpukan baju...
"Tidak ada." Jawab pelayan itu. "Tadi memang saya melihat Cece membawa kantong itu, tetapi saya tidak tahu selanjutnya."

2 baju yang mau ditukar, sepatu CROCS pink, dan 2 Hp, Sonyer dan BB... WAKKK.. NOO!! Aku mau nangis saja..

"Tadi memang ada orang yang ada disana." Pelayan itu lalu memperingatkan aku supaya tidak meletakkan barang sembarangan.. Bahaya, bisa cepat hilang.. Disaut orang.. Aku tahu kemungkinan itu.. Ga usah diberitahu lagi.. Aku wes stres, ditambahi Mamaku sudah mulai menceramahi aku lagi. Aduhhh, nasi dah menjadi bubur.. Aku tidak perlu nasehat2 skg... Pelayan itu masih bertanya-tanya ke mamaku. Mamaku menjelaskan kalau ada 2 HP, sepatu Crocs dan 2 baju di dalamnya.. Pelayan itu bertanya kreseknya bewarna apa? Mamaku jawab putih. Aku bener2 sudah putus asa.. Aduh, kok isa begini???

Kemudian, aku dan mamaku meninggalkan toko itu. Dalam pikiranku, selanjutnya aku pakai HP apa? Adikku pasti marah dan tidak akan membelikan HP buatku lagi.. Lemeesss aku... :( Lalu aku terpikir, mungkin tertinggal di sudut toko yang lain, sebab aku tidak ingat kapan kantong itu mulai tidak ada padaku. Aku langsung kembali dan berputar-putar di toko itu tadi. Tidak ada. Mamaku sempat bertanya apakah disini tidak ada tempat pengaduan?? Dalam hati aku benar2 hopeless.. Sulit rasanya menerima kenyataan kalau kantong tu bener hilang...

Aku melihat pergelangan tanganku yang masih merah2 karena belitan kantong kresek yang hilang beserta isinya itu.. Saat itulah, baru aku ingat, KALAU: kantong itu dibawa mamaku saat aku ribut memilih-milih baju. Aku langsung berlari dan menghampiri mamaku. Mamaku langsung menuju ke kasir dan bertanya. THANKS, GOD!! LOST, BUT FOUND. Ternyata kantongnya itu disimpankan oleh si kasir.

Aku ya mau protes juga soalnya Mamaku tidak ingat sama sekali dan ikut menceramahi aku.. (Tapi aku sendiri juga tidak ingat.. Wekekekekke..) Untunglah ketemu, jadi BERSYUKUR banget!!

Pelayan nya lalu bilang lhow ini kan kresek hitam, bukan putih, makanya tidak kami keluarkan sebab kami juga tidak tahu ini milik siapa yang tertinggal di meja kasir..
Gluodakkk, ya, aku memang membawa kresek putih dari rumah, tetapi setelah membeli baju yang 2 lembar itu, semuanya kumasukkan dalam kresek hitam, dijadikan satu dg 2 baju yg br kubeli.. Wuitsss, padahal hatiku dah ilang rasane... Tapi THANKS.. KETEMU... ;DDD

What's in your heart??

BETEEeee....

Iya, aku memang lagi bete... Aku sudah berusaha ngelesi... tapi kok seakan gak ada gunanya ya?
Yeah, aku masih punya banya kekurangan:
1. Aku harus punya bukunya
2. Aku harus siap soal saat datang ngelesi, dengan jawabannya
3. selanjutnya dia harus berlatih sendiri...
4. tegaskan hal itu ke dia dan mamamya..

really... aku merasa terbeban... muridku dapet jelek lagi... padahal aku sudah ngelesi, soalnya dia tidak ada niat utuk memahami soalnya... lalu??

oke, sekarang buat soal dulu saja..

bener2 BETEEeee....

Convention for those wounded in love

by Paulo Coelho on August 21, 2010

General provisions:

A – Whereas the saying “all is fair in love and war” is absolutely correct;

B – Whereas for war we have the Geneva Convention, approved on 22 August 1864, which provides for those wounded in the battle field, but until now no convention has been signed concerning those wounded in love, who are far greater in number;

It is hereby decreed that:

Article 1 – All lovers, of any sex, are alerted that love, besides being a blessing, is also something extremely dangerous, unpredictable and capable of causing serious damage. Consequently, anyone planning to love should be aware that they are exposing their body and soul to various types of wounds, and that they shall not be able to blame their partner at any moment, since the risk is the same for both.

Article 2 – Once struck by a stray arrow fired from Cupid’s bow, they should immediately ask the archer to shoot the same arrow in the opposite direction, so as not to be afflicted by the wound known as “unrequited love”. Should Cupid refuse to perform such a gesture, the Convention now being promulgated demands that the wounded partner remove the arrow from his/her heart and throw it in the garbage. In order to guarantee this, those concerned should avoid telephone calls, messages over the Internet, sending flowers that are always returned, or each and every means of seduction, since these may yield results in the short run but always end up wrong after a while. The Convention decrees that the wounded person should immediately seek the company of other people and try to control the obsessive thought: “this person is worth fighting for”.

Article 3 – If the wound is caused by third parties, in other words if the loved one has become interested in someone not in the script previously drafted, vengeance is expressly forbidden. In this case, it is allowed to use tears until the eyes dry up, to punch walls or pillows, to insult the ex-partner in conversations with friends, to allege his/her complete lack of taste, but without offending their honor. The Convention determines that the rule contained in Article 2 be applied: seek the company of other persons, preferably in places different from those frequented by the other party.

Article 4 – In the case of light wounds, herein classified as small treacheries, fulminating passions that are short-lived, passing sexual disinterest, the medicine called Pardon should be applied generously and quickly. Once this medicine has been applied, one should never reconsider one’s decision, not even once, and the theme must be completely forgotten and never used as an argument in a fight or in a moment of hatred.

Article 5 – In all definitive wounds, also known as “breaking up”, the only medicine capable of having an effect is called Time. It is no use seeking consolation from fortune-tellers (who always say that the lost lover will return), romantic books (which always have a happy ending), soap-operas on the television or other such things. One should suffer intensely, completely avoiding drugs, tranquilizers and praying to saints. Alcohol is only tolerated if kept to a maximum of two glasses of wine a day.

Final determination:
Those wounded in love, unlike those wounded in armed conflict, are neither victims nor torturers. They chose something that is part of life, and so they have to accept both the agony and the ecstasy of their choice.
And those who have never been wounded in love will never be able to say: “I have lived”. Because they haven’t.

Life Goes On

Feelings don't die easily because we keep feeding them with memories. That's exactly the reason why it's so hard to move on. #damn, it's true

It's hard to distance myself mentally from a person that I see every day. #damn, it's true

Move on doesn't mean you'll forget all the memories. You'll still remember it, but it doesn't affect you anymore. #ihatequotes

It's nice to look back to your past when you can see it as a lesson, not as something to regret. -@WilzKanadi #ihatequotes

... that when events happen which seem catastrophic, it is not only possible, but very important for you to allow yourself to come to a place of calmness. Panicking serves no one - not yourself, not the people who are suffering, and not the planet. Allow yourself to trust that there is a larger purpose and that it may not be necessary for you to know that purpose at this time. Allow yourself to have faith that ultimately, all will be well.
#Messages from God.

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on. -Robert Frost #ihatequotes

♥ Love Is When ♥

♥ He Starts Geting Serious Abt His Life, N ' She Stops Thinking Abt It . . .
♥ He Starts Saving Money 2 Spend Only 4 Her, N She Never Stops Spending On Her self '
♥ He Stops Smoking Just 4 Her, N She Starts Alarming Abt It Not To Have It '
♥ He Starts Geting Crazy On Her Every Move, N She Start Realizing How Beautiful Is She For Someone '
... ♥ He Starts Teling Her Every Little Thing, N She Starts Talking Abt Useless Thngs '
♥ He Stops Sleeping Just 2 See Her Sleep, N She Start Sleeping Jst 2 Let Him Look At Her '
♥ He Starts Geting Close To Her, N She Stops Him Never For This '
♥ He Stops Looking At Othr Grls, N She Starts Getting Serious Abt Her Own Looks '
♥ Falling In Love Is The Best Thing In Life ! ♥

(Hidden Feeling)

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Love is like the raindrops, you can feel it. but you can't stop it. #ihatequotes

Rules when you love someone: give & don't expect, advice but don't command, ask but never demand. Simple but it take a lifetime to practice. #Ihatequotes

Disappointments are just God's way of saying: "I've got something better." Be patient, live life, have faith. -Lanette Sem.

Is it possible to deviate from the path of God has made? Yes, but it’s always a mistake.
Is it possible to avoid pain? Yes, but you’ll never learn anything.
Is it possible to know something without ever having experienced it? Yes, but it will never truly be part of you.
(Paulo, in Aleph)

Love Finds it's way ♥ no GPS needed =)
~~ JodiAlive InYeshua ~~

He did it again... Thanks so much... ;DD

Ni bagian kedua dari "Oops, I did it again".
Memang aku tidak jadi ke WBL, tapi ternyata papaku tidak jadi ke luar kota, padahal aku dah terlanjur tidak ikut.
Teman mudikaku mengajak aku main badminton atau billiard.. Hahaha, aku seneng, mereka bilang nanti jam 12 aku dikabari lagi... kutunggu sampai jam 11.45, tidak ada kabar, aku sudah mulai cape menunggu... Lagian Arus juga mengajakku pergi JJ... wahahaha... (Sudah lama aku tidak JJ bareng ma Arus, aku lebih cenderung ke pergi bareng ini seh seharus e... tapi wes terlanjur bilang mau ikut ke teman2 mudika, rasanya kok gmana klo membatalkan di menit2 terakhir...)

Akhirnya aku sudah menyusun acara:
1. Pk. 13.00 - 17.00 JJ dengan teman2 mudika, Arus juga kuajak jalan sama2 dg kita.
2. Pk. 17.00 - dst Mengunjungi Omaku, berlanjut dengan makan bersama keluarga
(Yah, aku tidak bisa memasukkan acara ke gereja karena jadwalku wes penuh..)

Ternyata teman2 mudika ku tidak jadi pergi.. @tepuk dahi
Ya wes, aku ngabari Arus nek aku ga jadi pergi ma arek2 mudika, kita lanjut pergi dewe ae. Ternyata Arus bilang klo cuma sebentar, lain kali saja, soalnya nanti pergi jadi tidak enak, seperti orang dikejar-kejar... kecuali kalau kamu bisa ikut pergi sampai malam, sampai min jam7..

Akhirnya kuputuskan aku mau pergi ma Arus saja, tidak apa2 aku tidak ikut ke Omaku sekali ini saja. TAPIIII.... pas aku ngom tidak ikut ke Papaku, papaku kamu lho jarang ke Oma, ntar ditunggu2 dan dicari lo.

Hatiku protes.. Yang benar memang seharusnya aku ke Omaku.. Don't say, "Oops, I did it again." akhirnya aku berpikir bagaimana kalau ditukar, jam 13.00 ini saja aku pergi ke Omaku, dan selanjutnya aku bebas pergi. Ternyata mamaku tidak mau jadwal potong rambutnya dirubah.

Ya sudahlah... aku menelepon Arus dan membatalkan acara kita.. Lain kali saja...
aku tidur2an di kasur sambil memikirkan acara hari ini yang tidak ada yang jadi... hahahaha... sekarang, santai ae wes...

Tapi, tak lama kemudian, adikku telpon mamaku tidak bisa pulang jam 13.00----yang mau potong rambut adalah Mama dan adiku yang kecil----akhirnya jadawal potong mamaku terpaksa berubah.

Hasil akhirnya:
1. Omaku senang dikunjungi
2. Aku bisa ke gereja jam 16.30
(aku sudah tidak berpikir bisa ke gereja minggu ini.. ternyata semua yang batal tu yang menuntunku mengambil jalan ini... Ga jadi seneng2----tapi puas n tidak merasa beban, jadi seneng juga.)

"Secara nggak kita sadar i...Tuhan itu selalu mencari jalan agar Dia bisa menarik kita agar lebih dekat pada-Nya...Namun kebanyakan justru kita yang menjauh dari Tuhan. Jadi tinggal kemauan dan kesadaran kita untuk mau menjawab panggilan Tuhan. Gbu."
~~~ K I N G ~~~

He did it again... Thanks so much... ;DD

Lakukan saja bagianmu

Ada satu cerita yang bagus, tapi sayang nya belum sempat kushare.. BBku sudah HANG... hehehe.. sekarang BBku masih dalam waiting list otw to the store

Adalah seekor ulat yang kalaparan memandang sebuah pohon mangga.
"Hai, pohon, bolehkah aku memakan daunmu, aku sangat kelaparan."
"Bila kau makan daunku, pohonku bisa menjadi gundul," sang pohon menjawab, tetapi dia tetap memperbolehkan ulat itu untuk makan daunnya.
Waktu berlalu dan di suatu bagian dari pohon tersebut tampak beberapa daun yang berlubang-lubang.
Sang ulat itu telah berubah menjadi kepompong dan tak lama kemudian, dia berubah menjadi seekor kupu-kupu yang indah.
"Mari kubantu penyerbukanmu, sehingga engkau dapat berbuah."

MORAL:
Lakukan saja bagianMu, janganlah terlalu menghitung untung rugi, kelak semuanya akan kembali padamu.

SIIIPP kan?? ;))

Oops, I did it again....

Wakakakaka... dat's not Britney's song... It's my story. This week, AGAIN.. I made the same old mistake..

Yeah, minggu ini, 23 Oktober 2011, aku dengan teman2 kantor sudah berencana mau keluar pesiar sama2, ke WBL. Sebelumnya jadwal kor sudah dibagi.. Tanggal 23 Okt 2011, kita juga ada jadwal nyanyi di gereja. Ya, aku ingin refreshing... karena itu, aku cenderung milih ini..

Latihan minggu terakhir menjelang tampil, aku tidak ikut. Yaaa... karena kupikir aku pasti mau pergi ke WBL dan tidak tampil.. ya aku tidak ikut latihan.. Saat itu ada suara yang pelan berkata, kamu sudah ngorbanin ga latihan, gmana kalau kamu sampai tidak jadi pergi ke WBL?? Aku tidak menggubris suara itu, karena aku PASTI ke WBL.

Kamis malam, Mamaku sakit punggung. Dia tidak bisa duduk juga tidak bisa berdiri tanpa merasa kesakitan... Kok ya pada saat bersamaan, ada teman kantor dari anak perusahaan lain yang juga sakit yang mirip2. Mamaku bertanya obat yang diminum oleh temanku ini..

Jumatnya aku tidak masuk kerja, mbantuin Mamaku kerja di rumah. Jumat sore mamaku sudah sangat membaik, aku masih menyimpan keinginan ke WBL itu.. Malamnya aku bertanya, Mama bilang sudah lah, temani Mama saja... tapi aku masih pingin pergi. Peristiwa ini seperti peringatan buat aku. Suara tu bilang lagi ini menjadi begini karena kamu bolos tampil.. Aku cuek, malah mikir pekerjaan rumah tu cape juga, lalu aku tertidur.

Keesokan paginya, sebenarnya aku berniat masuk kerja, tetapi mamaku membangunkan aku sambil berkata, hari ini kamu jangan masuk kantor dulu, temani mama, karena punggung Mama sakit lagi. Kemarin malam Mama memasukkan selembar baju dan celana ke mesin cuci----mesin cuci kita yang lubangnya di samping. Sakit punggungnya kambuh lagi karena membungkuk.

Akhirnya----walau sekarang, mamaku sudah pintar menyiasati dengan duduk atau bertumpu pada kaki----kuputuskan aku tidak ikut ke WBL karena Mamaku masih ga bisa bekerja yang menggerak-gerakkan punggungnya. Lagian Minggu ini, Papaku keluar kota, adikku ngelesi----spt biasa, seharian----dan adikku yang kecil les pelajaran seharian juga buat persiapan masuk universitas, berarti mamaku bakal sendirian di rumah. Kalau aku ikut, kok rasanya aku egois dan memaksa sekali??

Lagian, dari awal, karena aku mengutamakan senang2, aku sudah diperingatkan, tapi----Oops, I did it again.

"Carilah dahulu Kerajaan Allah dan kebenarannya, maka semuanya akan ditambahkan kepadaMu."
(Hehehe... tidak tahu ada di kitab apa, pasal dan ayat berapa??)
Tau, tau wes an... Matius 6:33. SIPPPP...

I'm sorry, I will try harder not to repeat the same mistake in the future...

can i keep you? {casper} _ one sentence contest

So sweettt....

My fave movie 15 years ago, but I still love it now... Like the song too!


Every now and then, we find the special friend who never lets us down
who understands it all, reaches out each time we fall.
You're the best friend that I've found

I now you can't stay, a part of you will never ever go away, your heart will stay...
I'll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true
and life will just be kind to such a gentle mind.

If you loose your way, think back on yesterday, remember me this way,
Remember me this way...

(Remember me this way, By: Jordan Hill)

StubBorNes$

Karim - seorang mandor - berada di loteng sebuah bangunan dan berteriak ke arah bawah memanggil Budi. Di bawah, Budi sedang mengayak pasir di samping sebuah molen. Berisiknya suara molen tua dan kebisingan lalu lintas di perempatan dekat lokasi proyek itu membuat Budi tidak mendengar panggilan Karim.
Dilemparnya koin seribuan, jatuh di dekat kaki Budi. Dilihatnya Budi mengambil uang itu dan menoleh ke kanan ke kiri, tapi tidak menoleh ke atas. Sambil tersenyum lebar, Budi memasukkan uang seribu rupiah itu ke kantong bajunya.
Karim menggerutu. Diambilnya uang kertas seratus ribuan dan dilemparnya ke bawah. Uang kertas itu melayang-layang sejenak dan akhirnya jatuh di atas ayakan pasir, tepat pada saat Budi sedang menghadap ke arah berlawanan untuk mengambil pasir. Waktu akan menumpahkan pasir dari timba ke ayakan, Budi melihat lembaran uang berwarna merah itu. Dan kali ini Budi hampir berjingkrak kegirangan mengambil uang itu, lalu mengantonginya.
Karim menjadi sangat kesal, karena Budi tidak berusaha melihat ke atas untuk melihat darimana datangnya uang-uang itu. Diambilnya sebutir kerikil kecil dan dilemparnya ke bawah. Kali ini jatuh tepat mengenai kepala Budi. Merasa kesakitan, Budi memandang ke atas dan mencari darimana datangnya batu yg menyakitinya. Dilihatnya Karim meneriakkan sesuatu kepadanya, diberikannya isyarat ia tidak bisa mendengar, lalu Karim membalas dengan isyarat menyuruhnya naik.

Pada umumnya manusia seperti Budi, menerima berkat-berkat dengan gembira, tapi LUPA untuk mencari siapa yg memberikannya, sampai yg diterima menimbulkan rasa sakit.

Ayo, segera mencari Tuhan, sebelum kerikil jatuh di kepala kita.

Lukas 11:28
"Yg berbahagia ialah mereka yg mendengarkan firman Allah dan yg memeliharanya."

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LoSt

Feel Happy, hate, down, spirit, blessed..it's a life..isn't it? :)

Bapa, Aku bener2 sesat... Untuk saat ini aku hanya mau fokus menyelesaikan pekerjaanku, bantu aku untuk lebih konsen ya... Amin

Yaaa.. Memang hubunganku dengan Why tidak pernah baek sejak kapan.. Aku tidak tahu.. Sebelumnya memang aku tidak bisa percaya ke kamu, tapi menurutku, kita masih dapat bekerja sama dalam menjadi EO.. Tetapi kejadian C Lis Bun's Bday bener2 membuat keretakan tu menyentuh dasar..

Sebelum ini pun, menyangkut DIAM, aku sudah meletakkan.. Aku tidak akan cawe2 lagi.. Kita tidak cocok secara sifat, kita tidak akan bisa saling melengkapi.. Kita sama2 suka diperhatikan..

Dalam hati ku pun, that Voice sudah berulang kali bilang bahkan berteriak ke aku, bila memang begitu, langkah awal yg harus dilakukan adalah berbaikan dg WHY sebab penyebab utama keretakan hub kalian sudah tidak ada lagi. Tetapi berapa kali aku dteriak i, aku selalu mengabaikan suara itu, aku tidak dapat mengalahkan egoku.. Biar bagaimanapun, Why telah banyak menyakiti n membuatku jengkel..

"Only God can turn a MESS into a MESSage, a TEST into a TESTimony, a TRIal into a TRIumph"

On this day, God wants you to know that ... forgiveness is a virtue. Remember to forgive others, remember to forgive yourself. Learn and forgive.
Lalu aku menjawab: Like this.. If we have a good intention to realize something, He will surely help..

Ya, aku harus mulai usaha itu.. Tapi tadi pagi Set2 tau klo kita2 diajak jalan2 ma C Lis n Ko Rob.. Aku tetap tdk tahu.. Dalam hati aku membatin, usaha itu ga sesimpel yang kupikirkan.. Walau alasannya sudah tidak ada, kita telah ribut2, dan bilur2 lukanya tidak semudah itu hilang..

HEHEHEHEHE...
Ternyata Engkau mendengar doaku, siangnya aku di BBM Why, diberitahu soal rencana pergi itu.. Aku sempat membatin, mungkin tidak sesusah yg kubayangkan.. (Tapi, emang kita manusia lemah----aku pasti yang terakhir tahu..--- dalam hati ada teriakan seperti itu.. Manusia emang tidak mudah PUAS, selalu minta lebih)

Bapa, aku agak optimis krn ajakan pergi itu.. Tapi siang tadi begitu tahu acara ini, aku kontak ARUS n KONG, mereka tidak pergi, aku jadi malas pergi. Ya, aku bilang lain kali aja aku ikut.. Gapapa kan? I need some1 there that will understand me n always be by my side..

Holding a grudge only hurts you! /@4everBrandy #realtweet

Walaupun hati mu berduri seperti DUREN
& wajah mu gak keren + mirip PENGAMEN,
orang ngomong seperti itu,
tapi kita tetap FRIEND...

Ibarat aku mobil... kamu ban nya...
Aku langit... kamu laut nya...
Aku duit... kamu dompet nya...
Kalo aku duit lima ratusan kamu pasti monyet nya...

Eitzzzz... Gak blh mrh... Inget kita kan FRIEND... :p "̮ ♡hϱ♡hϱ♡hϱ♡ "̮ :p
Slalu dlm susah & senang... Kamu susah aku senang nya...
OKey...????????:D
:p "̮ ♡hϱ♡hϱ♡hϱ♡ "̮ :p

Loe ranting,gw bunga...
Loe sinting,gw bahagia...

Loe balon,gw beli...
Loe blo'on,siapa yg peduli?

Loe dora,gw spongebob...
Loe norak,gw ngetop...

Loe sawah,gw padi...
Loe marah gw lari...
__/Γ\=D/Π\___'-O---------O-' ngeng,, ngeng,,, hehehe...

:D :D :D :D :D :D
Ingaatt kt tetap Friend...
"fяιєи∂ѕ fσяєνєя"




Hahhahahha....semoga...I hope....hahahahaha....tapi tidak seringan seperti perkataan...hahahahaha...........

What makes us a fool? When it hurts seeing the one u love with somebody but still, u keep on staring. #ihatequotes

Owww.. Aku nyambung ketok e... Aku melihat di bola kristal IYA. Amin... Tambah bingung wes.. Wekekekeke...

I don't wanna be that fool anymore... #Stephnie Alice

“Life is the sum of all your choices.” — Albert Camus

"A drop of water falls in lake has no identity,
but if it falls on leaf of lotus it shines like diamond.
So choose best place where you can shine"
@Beautiful Thoughts

Don't underestimate the power you have...you have choice ♥
"If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment." ~ Marcus Aurelius

"At the center of your being you have the answer; You know who you are and you know what you want."
Lao Tzu

“It's better to be absolutely ridiculous than to be absolutely boring” – Marilyn Monroe #ihatequotes

Sometimes the hardest things to say are those that come straight from the heart. #ihatequotes

Whenever you feel weak, remember those who made you strong
Whenever you start to doubt yourself, remember those who believe in you.
~Unknown

Luck is not in ur hand
But work is in ur hand
Luck never makes ur work
But work can make ur luck
So all ways trust in yourself... ♥

iyo wes cc ngajar i semampune cc ae....ntik kan ketok hasil e ce,,

Preennns, aku mau share ceritaku pas ngelesi... Sebelum e aku pernah bilang nek aku wes patah semangat ngelesi ini... Koko ne tu nek diajari, susah diajak kerjasama, jadi waktu ngelesi tu isa molor2, jadi suwe wes, ga mari2... Aku ya pingin selesai, tapi ni belum isa trus piye.. Gitu dia ga merasa klo dia butuh belajar...

Sebelum ini, ada kejadian dia yang ulangan, dia yang ga bisa, tapi kok aku yang nahan2 dia ga ikut pergi ke GM. Mbe mamane ga oleh ikut, ditinggal, trus tambah mokong wes, aku dbilang cari perkara, n dia ga mau les. Aku ngancam aku pulang ae. Dia bilang ya pulangO. Wes, nguamuk aku... Ya, Cece pulang n ga mau ngelesi kamu lagi. Aku teriak keras waktu itu. (Dalam hati protes, nurut kamu cece seneng ta ga isa pulang2 itu?? aku wes ga tahan, cape n jengkel sorooo.... pas kantorku ya repot2e tu... awal bulan..)
Beneran stres waktu itu... Tapi besok e aku ditelp ma mamane, besok ul 2, tolong diles i lagi, dan lihat apakah ada perubahan sikap... Hari itu dia berubah, tapi hati ini jek jengkel, aku ga siap, pas aku ngelesi tu rasane aku ga isa ngguyu blas... smangatku DROP wes... malas ngelesi, ga nyaman...

Untung e mari gitu, dia libur, jadi aku ga perlu ngelesi kokone ini selama 4 hari, kamis, jumat, sabtu, minggu. Aku wes tenang mari gtu... Nek aku jek mau lanjut, aku ga oleh mutung... trus aku curhat ke temen2ku... rodok ada semangat... aku tanya ke temnku seng mantan guru SMP vita... dapet info nek jadwal ul vita tu dkasi tahu di awal semester, selama ini aku dbujuki, katane tau ne selalu ndadak, trus bahan e akeh, yakpa nututi belajar e?? ni ada titik cerah, aku lebih semangat...

Hari ini sebener e bukan hal yang bagus seh, tapi bikin aku semangat... Rapot sisipan e de e dibagi, hasil e elek2 wes, aku dkasi tau ma mamane.. Tapi mamane janji in aku bakal ngasi jadwal ulangan e dia selama sattu semester.. nah berarti aku ga bakal dibujuk i maneh.. aku bilang harus nyicilll...

Sebelume patah semangat soale ga tau mau yak pa... ni skarang ada jalan, mulai dari awal lagi... jadi semangat... Ya, pokok e ngajar sak mampuku.. selanjut e pasti ada hasile... arek e ga bego, tapi mokong e soro... SMANGAT!! :)

AYO seng laen e share pisan...bagi2 berkat Tuhan ke sesama...hahhahahaa....

Dino iki benar2 saye merasakan kelimpahan dari Tuhan.......
Hari ini harus bayar utang nde orang ben iso dikasik barang lagi.....tapi apa daya...uang nde ATM garek 100rb, duek cash tinggal 1 jeti......bingung ga ketulungan wes...paleng nggak mesti bayar wong iku min 5jt......sampe emesku duwe pikiran kape nggadaikno BPKB ne spd motor ben iso dapet uang cash...tagihanku dewe ga isa ta jagakno...soale mari liburan gini akeh2 e sek molor2 bayar e.
Akhir e diputusno lek terpaksa ya mesti nggadaikno BPKB ituw...Nah nde kene iki kuasa Tuhan mulai bekerja. Aku nggak langsung ke pegadaian....tapi nggurus perpanjangan SIUP sek...hari ini entek soal e wes an masa berlakue...rencana ne mari ngurus SIUP baru mbe emesku ke pegadaian, Nah, surat2 e SIUP ini wes ta persiapno ket hari jumat....nggurus e nde cedek e samsat situ....BUDHAL wes akhir e ke situ mbe sodok lemes2 ngono...hehehehehehe
Dadakno, mesti ada formulir lagi seng ta isi, ambe mesti TT ke emakku, soal e SIUP e atas namane emakku...akhir e mesti mampir ke rumah e emmaku gae minta TT. Mari ngono wes mari minta TT e emakku, balek lagi ke tempat e SIUP iku td, ambil nomor antrian trus tunggu dipanggil.
Eh..dadakno, aku salah nggae surat kuasa, isine surat kuasa, judul e surat pernyataan...salah judul tok..wong e ga gelem....wah....onok2 ae...brarti mesti balek maneh ke rumahku, mbenakno surat e, trus minta TT nang omah e makku, trus balek kono maneh...wih2.....
Sampe nde rumah, mau nggak mau mesti ngurupno komputer gae mbenakno surat e...mek ngganti judul tok...ee wes...sekalian wes mbuka e-banking gae ngecek duek.....hehehehehe.....eh...wes..bener2 kuasa Tuhan ini...duek e nde bank moro2 onok 7 jt...ada satu toko seng mestine mbayar e 2 minggu lagi...wes dibayar sekarang...ngga tanggung2...3 nota sekaligus ditransfer....speechless wes.....wes seneng ga keruan perasaan ku...luweh seneng timbang mangan gratis..hahahahaha.....
Akhir dibatalno wes mbe TUhan acara ke pegadaian e....dihapus..hehehehe....Lha...emesku mau telpon ke cukong e triplek...mau bilang lek nanti mau ditransfer...mau pesen barang sekalian.....Dadakno wong e malah telpon dw ke emesku, ga mbicarakno masalah tagihan, malah nawar i emesku disuruh pesen barang......wah...benar2 mujizat Tuhan ini.....
Coba waktu ngurus SIUP e lancar ga pakek pulang rumah sek, mbenak2 no surat nang komputer, pasti aku langsung ke pegadaian......
INi memang benar2 kelimpahan yang dijanjikan Tuhan, bukan kelimpahan dalam hal harta duniawi, tapi kelimpahan dalam hal sukacita dan damai sejahtera. Dalam masalah duniawi yang menghimpit, saya masih boleh beroleh kelegaan dan pengharapan.
"Aku datang, supaya mereka mempunyai hidup, dan mempunyainya dalam segala kelimpahan"(Yohanes 10:10b). GBU all......

Written by: KING

Celtic Woman - You Raise Me Up

Really need time management... Smangaatttt....

Hahaha... Kalo liat statusmu itu, harusnya kamu wes tidur skg... Masalah e... kok aku seger bugar ya?? hahaha, ok, bentar lagi aku tidur... ni dah mulai merem2 kok..

Sebelum ni aku post gambar gajah... So sweet...
lalu puisi itu "When you thought I wasn't looking" that's sweet too...
Like both of them so much... (^;^)(^;^)(^;^)

God, I feel like that "another bee" attract me... Yup, it just a feeling... God, lead me to the right path... "TERIMA KASIH TUHAN!!MEMANG SUNGGUH LUAR BIASA KASIH KUASA-MU..."

"Real friends hurt each other with the truth instead of destroying themselves with lies." To:Flower

Mr Twist of Fate, You somehow made Kokba dissappointed...

Smangattt to ALL of US...

Marvellously LOVED by my parents

Thank You, God for my Dad and Mom..

Mereka berdua sangat perhatian ke aku. Klo takinget-inget sekarang akeh wes... hal2 kecil seng bikin aku ngerasa klo aku bener2 disayang... wakakakkak... (namane juga anak e ya pasti disayang wes...)

Aku pernah cuci sepatu (sepatuku, sepatune adikku, sandalku, n sandal e mamaku), trus tiba2 Papaku menghampiri dan menawarkan untuk mencucikan... Aku disuruh siap2 segera mandi ae...

Mamaku walau aku ga ngom secara jelas, tapi ngerti aku pingin apa n perhatian klo oo, ni lipglossku sudah mau habis, tau2 aku sudah dibelikan... padahal aku ga minta...

Papaku, tidak peduli dia lagi lembur atau lagi dimana, dia selalu menyempatkan diri buat mengantar dan menjemput aku... Jadi aku biasane sebisa mungkin pulang ato berangkat sendiri... daripada liat papaku wira-wiri...

Mamku sangat perhatian ma aku makan ato gak... Pernah mamaku pergi keluar kota, kebetulan di rumah ga ada makanan, sebelum e mamaku wes telpon pas aku masi di kantor, nanti telponO ini ae lho... minta kirim. Pas di telpon aku lupa tanya berapa no telp, ternyata di rumah sudah ada note sing ditulisi no telp rumah makan itu...

Dan banyak hal2 lainnya lagi...

Love both of you, too...

Still Smile

Always try your best to get whatever you love. Otherwise, you'll be FORCED to love whatever you get.

To let go, I DON'T need strength. What I need is F A I T H and an understanding of Gods will.

When someone loves you, you feel strength. But when you step out and love someone... that requires courage.

Crying doesn't indicate that I'm W E A K. Since birth, it has always been a sign that I'm alive.

Sometimes, the best way to stay close to someone I love is by being just a friend. Nothing more, nothing less.

It doesn't matter how many times have you said it to me, I still smile when I heard those "3 words" from you.

When you thought I wasn't looking

by Mary Rita Schilke Korzan


When you thought I wasn’t looking
You hung my first painting on the refrigerator
And I wanted to paint another.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You fed a stray cat
And I thought it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You baked a birthday cake just for me
And I knew that little things were special things.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You said a prayer
And I believed there was a God that I could always talk to.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You kissed me good-night
And I felt loved.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
I saw tears come from your eyes
And I learned that sometimes things hurt—
But that it’s alright to cry.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You smiled
And it made me want to look that pretty too.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You cared
And I wanted to be everything I could be.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
I looked . . .
And wanted to say thanks
For all those things you did
When you thought I wasn’t looking.


Source: Paulo Coelho's blog

hidden feeling

I miss U sooo much !
why don't u ever understand that ?
if I'm not texting u...it means I'm waiting for u to msg me !
if I'm not speaking to u..it means I want u to talk to me !
why can't u understand my feelings which I can't express ?
... ... why can't u ever feel them ?
it seems like u chose to act blind to my feelings... or rather should I say.. unexpressed and Hidden Feelings !!

I wish I could explain to you how I felt, because every night before I go to bed, you're all I think about.

I say “I don’t care” because... my pride won’t let me show you how much I need you.

Love is a fire. But whether it is going to warm my hearth or burn down my house, I can never tell.

You know you love someone when you save their texts and re-read them when no one is watching.

Celtic Woman - Amazing Grace

Hectic Days

Wwwooooo... Lately I really had hectic days, starting from Sunday, till today...

Papa Bear, rasane kali ini aku seng ngerjain Koko. Wakakakakka... Tebakan e bener2 melenceng, hahaha... Who is Garmatin?? That's still a mystery. You won't be able to guess it correctly.

Once i had a dream of seeing you dating with a girl, Diam. She has a long blond straight hair. She looks so astonishing with her pale beauty. I remember I had this dream when I got no reply from you... Then the next day, I thought maybe that you have already had some1 as your crush... "tak tugas sek yow." "mission complete"

Tuhan, berkumpul dengan Mudika bener2 membuatku berpikir. Aku benar2 bebas tertawa saat berkumpul bersama mereka.. Dulu di GENX juga seperti itu... sejak kapan jadi seperti ini yach?? Sejak aku menunjukkan kecemburuanku... DIAM keliatannya COOL COOL aja. Aku n Why yang ribut2 sendiri. This roller coaster should stop, I said to my heart. I am trying, Lord.

Hhmmmm, Lord, you remind me maybe the first thing that you should do is to reconcile everything is to forgive and to restore your relationship with Why.
You had and have always whispered in my heart.. but I don't wanna listen, till now.
Even today, I am trying to be good to her, but then that negative thoughts just come out, I couldn't plan it, it just come out, I also couldn't curb it. This is abt KokBa's birthday gift. Tomorrow is his birthday. ( I am not pretty sure actually... ).

Yea, tentang GENX ini sebenere not dat compli... Wanna lay down everything before you feet, Lord... :))

Trust U full

Sesuatu... Sir Cake of Courage... (Ganti nama panggung Mr Twist of Fate mu dg ini... hahaha...) Trust You full to get thru this, God...

Hallo, hari ini aku pergi dengan anak2 mudika... Tuhan, jujur sebenarnya aku tidak percaya diri menghadapi teman2ku... sepertinya aku seperti anak kecil saja... but, that's ME..

Jalan2 ke TP dan juga main bom bom car... aku benar2 senang berkumpul bersama mereka... Kita memang berkumpul karena kita berteman tanpa ada rasa apa2... tertawa sampai perut sakit karena tidak ada keputusan tentang kemana kita mau pergi... Setiap orang punya tujuan sendiri2... sampai Dettol bingung ( Once i fell for you Dettol, now you have already had a gf... I am happy for you... WYATB...) kamu sudah memutar mobilmu sampai berapa kali... hahaha...

Diam, kamu memang yang pertama yang membuatku berani melewati zona nyamanku... Semua itu terjadi karena Night Watcher club... 2 girls, 1 boy and 1 man... it never occur to me that things will turn out like this...

God, i wish I could be more REAL open with other... If i only count on my own capability, I will fail. Please help me... I trust You full. You know what's best for me... ( Somehow tonight i hope and then fall again... God, tonight actually i want to ask why? why? to Diam, but i don't have that courage... God, you understood me best... God, i am OK... hahaha... I wish i wont be mellow... God, if he is there, give him courage... otherwise please tuntun aku to pick the right path... )

Aku pingin berteman, tapi rupanya tidak mudah buat begitu.. perasaan selalu terbawa... ya, aku harus bbm dengan orang lain (berlatih berteman... freak yach?? hahaha... but that's true) juga saat BBM an dg mu... Jujur, batas antara fren n lover, aku masi ga bisa tarik garis... sebab aku ga banyak berteman dg cowo, tepatnya nyaris ga pernah deket dg cowo...

Wakakaka... ni emang personal diary... karena tu aku nulis nya lompat2.. tergantung yang ada di pikiranku... Tadi aku ditanyai oleh arek2 mudika "what criterias" Tuhannnn, they're smaller than me but they're more mature.. (apa tidak terbalik??)

... that there are times when a change of direction is for your highest good. It takes courage to change direction. Choose the path your heart agrees with and walk with your head high and your eyes open. Don't be afraid. @Message from God.

Okeee, start from this point onward I will put everything in place...
1. I hope I can earn more money from giving tuition
2. I wanna learn how to drive
3. I wanna be pretty
4. I wanna forget this matter, I wanna meet n get to know and get closer to some1 new.. (Some1 like Garmatin)----> Suka ngomel, tapi bisa kugodain, mengerti aku, dan tegas, klo bisa tinggi min sama mbe aku... hehehe... n seiman (kan aku selalu membayangkan kita sekeluarga masuk gereja bersama...)
Like how I get closer to Garmatin, I hope it will happen that way... AMIN.

God, honestly i am not ready for m*****g*. GOd, you understand all there in my heart. I trust U full. God, I wanna know more people n please show me the one that really capture my heart... Like how I get closer to Garmatin, I hope it will happen that way... I trust You full.

[ENGSUB] I Will Forget You - Park Shin Hye & Jung Yong Hwa - Heartstring...

[ThaiSub] I Will Forget You - Park Shin Hye Heartstring

Heartstrings OST: Because I Miss You (Jung Yong Hwa of CN Blue)

Always, under exactly the same sun
And always the same day
Other than you are not being here
there's nothing different at all
I just want to smile,
Want to forget everything
Just like absolutely nothing has happened
Smiling to live my days
Longing for you, I am longing for you

Reff:
Because I am longing for you
Everyday, all by myself
Calling and calling you
Missing you, I am missing you
Because I am missing you
Now it's like I have a habit,
Keep calling out your name
Even today.

I thought I'd let go
not leaving anything behind
No, no, now I still can't let you go
Reff:

Everyday, it feels like I'm gonna die
What should I do?
Love you, love you
I love you
I hadn't even spoken the words
I just let you go
Sorry, sorry
Do you hear my words?
My late confession,
Can you hear it?
I love you
I love you

[HD] Park Shin Hye - I Will Forget You (Heartstrings) w/ Lyrics

Finish it 1 by 1

Yuupppp.....

First, about Why, I can not do much.... My negative feeling and thought about her, I can't control it... I left that matter to you...

Ya, itu adalah kalimat yang baru kutulis saat hendak ke gereja... Engkau menjawabnya langsung... tapi, Bapa, aku sudah mencobanya... Dan Engkau selalu mengetes aku selanjutnya... Yang terjadi adalah saat pikiran mengontrol tindakanku, aku lulus tes, aku tidak bersikap dingin... bener2 tidak dendam... tapi cuma bertahan sebentar saja, Bapa, selanjutnya aku tidak bisa tidak berpikir negatif.. karena sejauh ini, aku tidak berpikir sampai sana, tetapi Why sudah memikirkannya... dan aku merasa terperangkap... Doaku tetap, untuk hal ini aku tidak bisa mengandalkan aku sendiri... bantu aku... (hehehe...)
Orang yang lemah tidak akan pernah dapat memaafkan orang lain, karena
"memaafkan" hanya bisa dilakukan oleh orang yang kuat. @MyQuotesDaily
Belajarlah dari anak-anak, mereka begitu cepat memaafkan orang lain, padahal mereka baru saja berkelahi,namum tak berapa lama, mereka sudah bermain kembali bersama- Lifelatos

Second, about flower... You r selfish.. you r spontaneous... you speak so frankly... honestly, I hold no more anger towards you, but ONE BIG BIG question remain... should I be the 1st one to say hello to you AGAIN AGAIN??

Kemaren aku inget pertengkaran kita... ga, biar aja tunggu aku punya ide buat ngusili kamu, baru aku sapa kamu...
Siang ini, ternyata sendiri tu ga enak.. dan jujur aku kehilangan tiangku... tapi jek gengsi... soal e inget lagu seng kamu tulis... gak... kamu terlalu enak sendiri, mosok aku lagi seng nduluin?? lagian kemaren kamu juga ga balas smsku tapi besok e balas sms e "you know who".
Malam ini, ternyata kamu mau dititipi.. ga perhitungan... LUMER wes aku... I will call you...
Indahnya sahabat sejati ketika,
ada sapa dalam diam ...
ada senyum dalam kebersamaan...
ada canda dalam pertemuan...
ada rindu saat berjauhan...
(Lifelatos)
Good friends are like Tom & Jerry sometimes crap keeps them apart, but they always come back together! #DamnItsTrue

Third, about Diam,
Diam, you are the 1st boy whom I can talk nonsense... it's funny...
But, Diam, we are only close to each other in BBM, and still---same thing happened to me---it's always me who make the first move...
I love when the guy I like texts me first, it means they're thinking about me. #DamnItsTrue
Diam, in reality... I don't have the courage to approach you.. Why is always there..
(You seemed to be comfortable with her, and she will always be there and ready to do anything for you, she does not have the principle that I have). Girl should not make the 1st move, that's my principle...
Ladies.. The proof of passion is pursuit! If a man REALLY wants to be with you, he finds a way! Keep your dignity! #ihatequotes

Jujur, kamu tipe yang suka diperhatiin... Why bisa lebih baik dalam hal itu... soale aku tu bukan orang seng perhatian, soal jalan, HP, tempat makan... kamu tanya aku hal itu pasti aku ga bisa jawab.. klo Why selalu bisa jawab...
Kadang aku mikir emang yang terbaik aku mundur... dulu aku pernah merasa kamu ada rasa ke aku... dulu... aku belum ada rasa saat itu... Why lebih cepat dekat ke semua orang dibanding aku.. Mungkin bila aku ga nunjukkin klo aku juga ada rasa ke kamu, dan ga cawe2... kalian pasti wes lebih deket..
Diam, klo taklihat, kamu mudah putus asa... dan bukan tipe cowo seng ndeketi... jadi pasti... klo aku ga ada respon, kamu dah melepas...
Aku dah ga pernah BBM personal kamu selama 2 minggu tepat hari ini...
I'm tired of feeling bad. I'd rather feel nothing. It's better, it's easier. #DamnItsTrue
(aku mulai ga BBM karena emang ga mau terlalu berharap.. dg BBM, pasti aku berharap, tapi di nyatanya, aku bukan apa2... sakit... aku ga mau gtu lagi. Tapi kok aku ga BBM kamu sesudah kamu ultah yo?? aku mau mulai BBM lagi.. tapi ga papa ta? buat aku sendiri, yakin isa tulus temen?? buat Diam, ga mau bikin kamu GR. nek aku mulai dulan gapapa ta?)
Love is complicated when you always depend on your feeling. Sometimes you just need to use your brain. #ihatequotes
2 minggu ga BBM kamu membuatku bisa menyetel hatiku dari 60 vs 09 jadi 50 vs 09. "setelan e tak bener no"----->tu status BB ku... Mind ku juga membantu aku, dia bertanya, kamu lak pingin orang yang perhatian kan?? yang selalu ada kaya Papamu kan? Diam sejauh ini cuma "almost here", entah karena alasan apa?? benerkah kamu begitu menginginkan Diam? klo tidak, relakanlah... ~~KEBESARAN dan KETETAPAN HATI~~
untuk kebaikanmu sendiri, Diam belum lulus tes "ALWAYS HERE"
untuk kebaikan DIAM, Why lebih bisa memperhatikan n memanjakan DIAM
untuk kebaikan grup, cold war ini bakal berakhir

Pa n Ma Bear, gapapa ta? ketoke setelan e rodok mantep kali ni... Confius, r u there? I will also ask my close co-workers. Last but BIGGEST, Ask MY FATHER in heaven... (^c^,)

Afraid to hope...

Dear Diam,

I am exhausted. Am I being too suspicious over things? Or am I trying to eliminate all of those suspicious things? I am completely LOST and left ALONE without GPS.

I wanted you to tell me your story, but you told her.
You did nothing wrong, but that hurt me.
I wanted you to ask my help, but you asked her help.
You did nothing wrong, but that hurt me.
I triggered you to be curious abt me, but you persistently said NO.
You did nothing wrong, but that made me sad.
When I was alone, I hoped you would came over, but she approached you and both of you laughed together.
You did nothing wrong, but that made me sad.

My heart shouted but my lips were sealed perfectly.
You somehow had already taken all my courage...
You somehow made me feeling too afraid to hope and try...

I want to be mad at you, but then you will think of me as a mad girl.
That's why I retreat...
Look into my eyes, please.. Maybe you will understand...
I don't like silent good bye, but I am really LOST and don't know what else I can do.

Even if I really left, will you notice it? Will you ask me why?
For that too, my mind warns me so loud..
For only that too, I am afraid to hope..

Homogenic - Seringan Awan

Di sini semua berawal
Walau seribu tanya bicara
Terbungkam oleh pesona

Tanpa arah semakin jauh
Ku bertahan
Haruskah ku hilang tanpa pesan?
Akankah kurindu semua kesan?
Itulah hatiku
Rasakan yang berbeda
Itulah pikirku
Bawaku ke duniamu
Itulah harapku
Akankah engkau mengerti?
Bila hadirmu
Buat hatiku seringan awan

Disini semua terungkap
Walau nyata enggan berkata
Membisu oleh prahara

Tanpa arah semakin jauh
Ku bertahan
Haruskah ku hilang tanpa pesan?
Akankah kurindu semua kesan?
Itulah hatiku
Rasakan yang berbeda
Itulah pikirku
Bawaku ke duniamu
Itulah harapku
Akankah engkau mengerti?
Bila hadirmu
Buat hatiku seringan awan

Pa&Ma Bear, Thank You!!

Thanks ya, Pa n Ma Bear buat doa damai nya...
Tu kan Doa Damai yang persis di misa?? hehe... takpikir Doa Damai seng lain... wes hapal (wakaakkak, tidak bermaksud buat gaya kok... cuma ngomong aja..)

Klo jujur, sebener e, sekarang bagian yang paling membuatku tak nyaman saat mengikuti misa bersama dengan arek2 adalah bagian ini. Setiap kali bagian ini, hatiku pasti memberontak berkata kalau aku berbohong.. Dari luar semuanya kelihatan baik2 saja, tetapi sebenarnya dari dalam, hubunganku dengan Why sudah sangatlah TAWARRRR...

Kita bersalaman hanya karena formalitas... hatiku bener2 protes, tapi aku tidak bisa kembali seperti dulu lagi... mungkinkah suatu saat kelak?? Amin. (Yang jelas, bila memang bisa, pasti bukan karena kemauanku murni semata, pasti karena pengaturanMu, Tuhan....)

Tentang hal kedua, bantu aku menyelesaikannya... Aku masih belum tahu harus berbuat bagaimana... Aku belum cerita ke siapapun... Aku marah... dan jengkel juga... protes juga, semudah itu dilepas?? Don't know what to say....

Is this your reply?? Don't know what to say...

IGNORANCE, by: Paramore

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle
A mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not A JUGDE but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same (no)
We're NOT THE SAME (no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good (hey)
It's good (hey)
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same (no)
We're not the same (no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah we USED TO stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you CAN'T ACCEPT that the change is good (hey)
It's good (hey)
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

@.@ ----------> (^C^,)

Before GOD

An old man sold toys in the Baghdad market. Knowing that his sight was not quite perfect, his customers sometimes paid him with fake money.

The old man discovered the ruse, but did not say anything.
In his prayers he asked God to forgive those who cheated him.
“Perhaps they’re short of money and want to buy presents for their children,” he said to himself.

The time passed and the old man died. Standing before the gates of Heaven, he prayed once more:
- Lord! – he said. – I am a sinner. I did many wrong things, I am no better than the false coins I was paid. Forgive me!

At that moment the gates swung open and a Voice was heard:
- Forgive what? How can I judge someone who all through his life never once passed judgment on others?

BEFORE GOD, by: Paulo Coelho, August 30th, 2011.

“Beneath every fear lies the pearl of hope.”

"The greatest influence in your life, stronger than your will power, is your environment. Change that, if necessary. Untill you are mentally strong, you can never be what you want to be without a good environment."
~Paramahansa Yogananda~
By: Lessons Learned In Life

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A young couple moves into a new neighborhood. The next morning while they are eating breakfast, the young woman sees her neighbor hanging the wash outside. “That laundry is not very clean”, she said. “She doesn’t know how to wash correctly. Perhaps she needs better laundry soap.” Her husband looked on, but remained silent.

Every time her neighbor would hang her wash to dry, the young woman would make the same comments. About one month later, the woman was surprised to see a nice clean wash on the line and said to her husband: “Look, she has learned how to wash correctly. I wonder who taught her this.” The husband said, “I got up early this morning and cleaned our windows.”

And so it is with life. What we see when watching others depends on the purity of the window through which we look. ~♥
By: Things that make you go :]

"~"~"~"~"~"~""~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"

A lion came across a group of cats having a chat. “I’m going to devour them,” he thought. But then an odd feeling of calm came over him. And he decided to sit down with them and pay attention to what they were saying.

- Good God! – said one of the cats, without noticing the lion’s presence. – We have prayed all afternoon! We asked for the skies to rain mice on us!
- And so far nothing has happened! – said another. – I wonder if the Lord really exists.

The skies remained mute. And the cats lost their faith.
The lion rose and went on his way, thinking: “funny how things are. I was going to kill those animals, but God stopped me. And even so, they stopped believing in divine grace. They were so worried about what was missing that they did not even notice the protection they were given.”

~Paulo Coelho's Blog, 12th of August, 2011.

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There I dedicated that sentence to some1, Here I dedicated that line to some1 else.
“Beneath every fear lies the pearl of hope.” -- Gabriella Goddard --

tertusuk duri bunga

WAAAAAA>>>>>>>WAAA>>>>>>>WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Aku tak tahu harus bercerita apa?? Aku kah yang salah? Kenapa kamu berpikir seperti itu?? Aku sama sekali tidak ada pikiran seperti itu... Karena itulah, aku marah, aku tidak terima...

Mungkin kamu merasa kalau aku semakin cerewet, dulu ku tak begini... Aku sendiri merasa bahwa akhir2 ini ku semakin cerewet. Sebagai sohib, seharusnya kita bisa saling menegur kejelekan teman kita...

Dulu, karena kamu mutung an, aku malas menegur, daripada nanti kamu mutung?? Pusing aku malahan... Aku tau kamu dan mencoba menutupinya... Aku tau kamu, tetapi selama tidak ada yang protes, ya kudiamkan... Buat apa aku yang ribut?? Sebab biasanya kamu bakal menjawab ini aku apa adanya, jadi karena kita sudah dekat, baru aku berani seperti ini... BENAR juga. Bukankah teman menerima APA ADAnya?? Aku tidak bisa menjwab untuk pertanyaan ini.

Aku tahu kamu NETI, masalahnya apa yang kamu pikir tu SALAH. Dan kamu langsung menyimpulkan sendiri, tanpa bertanya ke aku, mengambil tindakan berdasarkan itu.
Aku baru tahu sesudahnya. ITU SEMUA PIKIRANMU...

Argumenmu yang pertama kenapa kamu sampai seperti itu, seakan menyiratkan aku supaya melakukan sesuatu yang tidak bisa kulakukan... You can't force ME doing something that's not ME...

Argumen keduamu menunjukkan bahwa kamu tidak kenal aku... Aku bukan orang seperti itu.. Itulah adalah caramu berpikir, dan kamu menganggap bahwa aku berpikir seperti itu... Those ALL are YOUR own thought...

JENGKELLLLL.... sebab memang aku TIDAK berpikir seperti itu...
SEBEELLL.... karena setelah dijelaskan pun, penjelasan itu TIDAK cukup...
KESEEELLL.... sebab aku sampai sekarang BELUM tahu bagaimana menghadapi hal ini..

Taylor Swift - The Story of Us (Full Song + Lyrics!)

Cake of Courage

Banyak kejadian yang buat aku naek turun 2 minggu ini....

Mengurusi kado buat anak e KokBa... Felt so depressed cos couldn't do anything 4 ur Bird Day.. Wept cos finally it's Why who bought the gift 4 U...
The next day, decided to summon courage to order that cake... (spiku coklat semua, blackforest, spiku biasa...)

Office: "HBD, sesuatu..." Stock Opname, maybe couldn't make it...
Home: Wore my newest dress..
Pizza: Felt so nervous... Took that salad with shivering hands..
(Saw you wore that shirt.. Somehow it slapped me in the face.. Woke me up of the fact that you are nothing compared to her... they are so close...)
Actually, before any of those things happen, my mind always warn me to prepare for the worst thing.. At that time, I just felt that all my effort is ZERO..

Maybe it's time for you to retreat... If I try, I will hope... If I hope, I could be hurt... Exhausted...

I had already done whatever best that I could... Then, for the rest, It's up to you all...
Let's be FRIEND!! (90 vs 09) turn into (60 vs 09)
As a friend, I won't give too much, thus i also won't expect much.. To keep a friendship, it must be done 2 ways. Hope you will be more considerate and sensitive...

Love is a big sacrifice, isn't it? You try to forgive and forget, but you still give it a try. You are hurt, but you still continue to love. You were betrayed, but you still hope. And the big hit? You've been left, but you still wait.
~Hidden Feeling~
(Soorry... I am not this idealistics... Honestly, I am exhausted.. If I push too hard, that's not ME...)

I really tried to be as sincere as possible... (that's why from this point onwards, i won't give if i still expect something more than friends..)

Something New

It's the ones who hesitate to say "I love you" to early in the relationship that will in fact love you forever. #DamnItsTrue

Maybe for once it's not about the happy ending, Maybe it's about the story. #DamnItsTrue

90 VS 09, GUIDE ME to make this even...

I wish I could give you my pain just for awhile, not to hurt you, but for you to understand how much you hurt me. #DamnItsTrue

It's your life, you can live it however you choose to. Just make sure your life story is worth telling. #saturdayromance

Enjoy every smile and every tear, because the most beautiful smile comes after the most painful tear. #ihatequotes

Semua ada siklusnya

Jatuh untuk kemudian bangun dan bertindak.
Gagal untuk kemudian bangkit dan menjadi sukses.
Kecewa untuk kemudian bahagia dan mensyukurinya.
...Sedih untuk kemudian tersenyum yang menjadikan suasana hati kita diperbaharui.

Kita tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi dengan kita setelah ini,
melangkahlah dengan pasti,
karena yang kita tahu hanyalah,
untuk kehidupan ini semua ada siklusnya.

by Agus Suprastyo

emilia - life (will never be the same) +lyrics

I Won't Cry - Emilia [Lyrics]

Emilia - Maybe, Baby

Suami Istri

Life Is A Jokes :
"Pria Sukses Adalah Pria yang Pendapatannya Lebih Besar daripada Pengeluaran Istrinya Dan Wanita Sukses Adalah Wanita Yang Berhasil Mendapatkan pria Tersebut...

Kata2 bijak hari ini:
"Suami yang baik selalu meminta pendapat istrinya & Istri yang baik selalu meminta pendapatan suaminya."
Hahahaha... Siapa setuju??

Life Is A Jokes :
"Di Belakang Pria Sukses Selalu Ada Wanita Yang Hebat (Eropa),
Di Belakang Pria Sukses Selalu Ada Pesugihan Yang Kuat (Indonesia)"

"Para suami Indonesia yang baik hatinya, mintalah dukungan doa dari istri Anda, sebelum memulai sesuatu yang penting, lalu perhatikan apa yang terjadi."
#Mario Teguh#

Percaya Diri

Hari ini, mulailah hidup
dengan kesungguhan untuk membangun
diri yang bisa Anda percayai.

Janganlah sering membohongi diri sendiri,
...karena lama kelamaan diri Anda
akan belajar untuk tidak mempercayai Anda.

Dan itulah yang disebut ‘tidak percaya diri.’

Percaya diri
adalah mempercayai janji Anda sendiri,
bahwa Anda akan mendahulukan
yang penting, dan menghindari hal-hal
yang tidak menguatkan Anda.

Orang lain belajar mempercayai Anda
dari kepercayaan Anda kepada diri Anda sendiri.

Mario Teguh

I dedicated this poem for my beloved duo narcissist friends. Both of U r always in my mind. Hope the best for u always!!

Conclusions

Janganlah berharap untuk mendapatkan sesuatu
dari cinta dan yang kaucintai.
Karena,
...Cinta bukanlah untuk mengharapkan pemberian.
Cinta adalah tentang keanggunan hati untuk memberi.
Hanya orang yang hatinya menemukan kebahagiaan dalam memberi,
yang berbakat ditemukan oleh cinta yang lembut, jujur, dan setia.
Orang yang hatinya hanya tamak mengharapkan hadiah dari cinta,
akan dihindari oleh cinta, kecuali oleh penipu yang memalsukan cinta.
Memberi adalah hakikat cinta.
--Mario Teguh--


I believe that love is the most beautiful and the greatest of emotions, but can causes the biggest hurt in our lives…I believe it is worth the risk; I will take the hurt and remember the joy and live to love another day. ♥ Michele Burnell

Tak ada CINTA yg melukai,yg ada hanya keegoisan yg melukai cinta krn cinta cuma mengenal memberi dgn kerelaan utk mengasihi dgn tulus.^^ #Little hearts lie

Pull your heart out of its comfort zone. You'd never learn how to love unless you'd learn how to get hurt. #ihatequotes

What’s so hard about trying is the fact that you have to tell yourself to try. And when you try, try to do it with love. #N.N

Joy and Love

A believer approached Rabbi Moche of Kobryn and asked:
‘How should I best use my days so that God will be contented with my actions?’

‘There is only one possible option: to live with love,’ replied the Rabbi.

Minutes later, another follower approached him and asked the same question.
‘There is only one possible option: try to live with joy.’

The first follower was taken aback.
‘But the advice you gave me was different!’

‘Not at all,’ said the rabbi. ‘It was exactly the same.

Paulo Coelho, 15th of August, 2011

Feelings can be controlled, but tears never LIE (short version)

Put U as a friend, I'm FINE
Put U as some1 special, I'm so FRAIL
To keep U stay close, I'll always look FINE
Not to scare U away, I'll never show that I'm FRAIL

...Give it a try, n hoping...
Is left alone, n weeping...
Don't wanna stand up, n waiting...

U don't feel it
U don't notice it
U're confused a bit
My friend is not in her mood

Sometimes, U come over
Most of the times, U only look over

Can't U feel me?
I'm falling apart, I'm coming unglued.
Can't U see that water?
That's the tears shed in secret.

U know my feeling somehow
U notice my tears sometime
How to response to it, U don't know
Coz U don't wanna give hope 2me

Maybe..
That's the reason why I'm still holding on
U care for me in your own way
Hopefully..
This bond stays forever
As best friends, or
As siblings.

That's why, I'll always look FINE
And, I'll never show that I'm FRAIL
Slowly..
I'll try to change
For my SMILE to be true,
For my JOY to be real,
And, for our BOND to last forever.

Being left out is really really horrible. But I can't say anything without sounding jealous or like a cry baby. #DamnItsTrue

Feelings can be controlled, but tears never LIE. #DamnItsTrue

Can you hear that?
That's the sound of a breaking heart.
It's crying out to you,
It's crying out to you.

Can your see that water?
That's the tears shed in secret.
They cry out to you,
They cry out to you.

Can you hear me?
I'm falling apart,
I'm coming unglued,
I'm breaking apart.

(Hidden Feeling, 14th August, 2011)

Put you as a friend, I am FINE
Put you as some1 special, I am so FRAIL
To keep you stay close, I will always look FINE
Not to scare you away, I will never show that I am FRAIL

Give it a try, and hoping...
Is left alone, and weeping...
Don't wanna stand up, and waiting...

You don't feel it
You don't notice it
You are confused a bit
My friend is not in her mood

Sometimes, you come over
Most of the times, you only look over

Give it a try, and hoping...
Is left alone, and weeping...
Don't wanna stand up, and waiting...

Feel that you know my feeling somehow
Notice that you notice my unshed tears sometime
How to response to it, you don't know
Coz you don't wanna give hope to me

Maybe..
That's the reason why I am still holding on
You care for me in your own way

Hopefully..
This bond stays forever
As best friends, or
As siblings.

That's why,
I will always look FINE
That's why,
I will never show that I am FRAIL

Slowly..
I will try to change
For my SMILE to be true
For my JOY to be real
And,
For our BOND to last forever

(Stephnie Alice, 14th of August, 2011)

Mempraktekkan nasehatku sendiri ternyata... susahhh...

Banyak hal terjadi akhir2 ini... Padahal yang seblumnya belum sempat kuceritakan..

Yaa... Sad, Hepi n besok, aku ga tau... sad or happy??
Sad, oleh2nya dititipkan ke Why.. I was not in a good mood for almost one day n one night...
Heppi, I could control my emotion and didn't bomb blast everything by making an "swt atatus"... malam sebelumnya aku bercakap-cakap dg Arus klo seharusnya ZZ harus memikirkan keadaan yang bakal terjadi sesudahnya sebelum melangkah (pelajaran yang dapat dipetik dari ZZ-Arus), aku tidak pernah berpikir bahwa aku akan mengalami hal sejenis itu dalam waktu kurang dari 24jam...

#justbecause I'm cool about it outside, doesn't mean I don't care about it inside. #DamnItsTrue.
Sometimes when I say "I'm OK" I want you look at me and say "Tell the truth" #DamnItsTrue
(For me, maybe it's not sometime, it would be most of the time...)

Sad or happy?? Tomorrow... I believe that God's answers are wiser than my prayers. #DamnItsTrue. Amen.

Love is when we pray secretly for our lover to be at his best moment at every time :) --Meeta Mansi Karnani---

Lucu @ EAT

Aku wes lupa kapan ini terjadi... Yaa.. Soale wes kesuwen seh ga nulis2.. makae kali ini tak sempetin nulis, tapi belum basi kokk..

Hari itu kita makan di Eat, minumnya kita pesen Chinese Tea.. Kita yang kumaksud disini: Why, aku n Diam. Formasi duduk kita pas di Eat juga begitu..

Sebener e aku sudah tau klo cangkir teh Diam kosong, tapi yang pegang teko teh Why n aku mau ambilin teh buat Diam rodo malu ato ga tau knapa, ntar ketok blebihan.. Jadi aku diem aja.

Akhire Why yang nuangin buat Diam.. Dalam hati aku bergumam, seharuse aku tadi tanggap n ga malu2... Salahku sendiri..

Tapi rupanya cara menuangkan teh Why tidak cekatan, jadi akhire Diam malah meminta teko tehnya dikasi ke dia aja. Diam menuangkan tanpa takut kepanasan, luwes.

Tengah2 makan, cangkir teh Why kosong, ternyta Diam tanggap dan meminta cangkirnya untuk diisi.. Berhubung aku duduk di tengah, aku menjadi perantara dan memberikan cangkir Why di depan meja Diam.

Saat menerima cangkir Why yang sudah penuh terisi, sepintas aku langsung melihat cangkirku, cangkirku masih separuh terisi. Dalam hati aku membatin, aku juga mau diisikan cangkirku..

Ternyata Diam tanggap juga, dia juga menunjukkan mau mengisi cangkirku juga, tapi dia memandang aku dengan kebingungan n panik, "ketukar, itu bukan cangkirmu."

Saat itu aku sadar ternyata saat menerima cangkir Why yang penuh tadi, aku tidak langsung meletakkan di meja depan Why, tetapi malah membawanya, memegangnya erat2 dengan kedua tanganku dan mengangkat cangkirnya di depanku, seperti ga rela melepaskan cangkir itu.

Arus yang duduk di depan Why langsung tertawa terbahak-bahak, diikuti cengiran Diam. "Aku tau, ni mau taktaruh kok." Aku bilang seperti itu.

"Tapi, aneh, Ce, kok ga langsung diletakkan?" Diam protes. Arus tertawa ngakak lagi. "Aku tau kok itu bukan cangkirku." Aku bilang seperti itu lagi. "Tapi, gerakan e Cece tadi ga wajar." Diam menyahut, ga mau kalah sambil tersenyum-senyum melanjutkan menuangkan teh ke cangkirku. Arus tetap aja ngakak2 sambil komentar, "Iya, iya, Bener."

Hehehehehe... Aku dalam hati malu. Kalau dipikir-pikir, gerakanku memang agak ga wajar.. Masalah e kan waktu itu aku ga nyadar klo gerakanku terhenti soale aku sibuk dengan pikiranku... ;))

Cracking The Man Code: What Turns Men On

Why Men Pull Away (Mat Boggs founder of Cracking The Man Code)

What Do You Want From Me - Adam Lambert Lyrics

ketinggalan beneran deh... tapi ternyata bisa disusulkan... Heeppiii... Tks!!

Hahahha.. Thanks, God!

Honestly kemaren ngrasa gmana gtu... Gonna loose contact 4 a week... So hopeless. Tadi pagi, kmu BBM aku... Senang e... @Diam: tks, dah balas BBM ku di saat yg tepat..

Cinta itu tidak seperti:
Nobita, yang penakut..
Sizuka , yang lemah..
Giant, yang kasar..
Atau Suneo yang sombong..
Tapi:
Cinta itu seperti
Doraemon yang selalu penuh
dengan keajaiban.
(SMS Ko Pet)

My chief assistant (2)

Yaaa.... setelah peristiwa itu, gmana2, hubunganku dengan CA rodok kaku... Kalau dia ngom agak keras, aku pasti berpikir apakan ada maksud di baliknya... Tapi aku berusaha pikir positif kok....
"People can't force you to creep if you want to soar."
It's me and I'm happy with it....

Ada anak baru di kantorku. Anak baru ini suka maen HP d kantor, jadi walaupun belum ditegur, tapi beberapa teman2 kantorku sudah mulai membicarakannnya. Nah, siang itu, tepatnya Jumat, 22 Juli, kita sekantor berencana hendak berjalan-jalan ke Mall di Sidoarjo. Kita memang memilih Jumat sebab setiap hari Jumat kantorku istirahatnya 1,5jam. Cukup untuk dibuat jalan2 keluar kantor.

-To be continued tomorrow, the writer is sleepy now. Hehehe-

Maka e, jok suka nunda2...

Hmm... aku kecewa, poO aku kok gak tau?? Aku lagi asik jalan2 mbe mama, aku ga cek update statusmu... aku bahkan ga sempet bilang met seneng2... Really wish could do more... more than that...
Aku baru tau klo kamu sudah pergi Bangkok 2 jam sesudah e... Rasanya pingin aku ngomel kenapa gak bilang2 klo kamu pergi hari ini? Tapi SIAPA AKUU?? Aku jadi teringat yang di film2 itu... Tertinggal di stasiun atau terminal... Aku cuma tau kamu pergine akhir Juli, tangal pastine tidak tau...

Hahaha... setelah kubaca ulang, yang diatas tu agak lebay ya?? Hahaha... Diam lho cuma pergi seminggu... (tapi padahal ada yang mau kuceritakan, jadi ga jadi deh... makae sebel2 piye gtu...) Why juga ganti PP di BB ne 3 menit sesudah Diam update status BB ne pk 13.18, "All bags are packed and ready to go..." Why pasti perhatiin Diam sedangkan aku?? malah ga tau... makae rodo2 sebel...
Akhir2 ini rasane hub ku mbe Diam jadi kayak dulu lagi... Seneng, hehe.. tapi...
"I am the girl and you are the boy, you text me first otherwise we won't talk today." Tetap selalu aku yang mendahului..
My pride didn't allow me to keep on BB him, dats why I postpone BB U... Unfortunately, I missed my last chance to BB you before you went abroad...

Frail solution: inbox your FB.. Hope you once open your FB and read it there...

#dearCRUSH Late at night when all the world is sleeping I stay up and think of you. #DamnItsTrue.

My chief assistant (1)

"SEBELL ma arek seng ga jujur!!"
July, 13, 4:24 p.m. via Blackberry

Niew dah peristiwa lama seh, sebenere males nginget2 lagi. Buat apa ingat2 peristiwa yang menjengkelkan hayo?? Kan tidak ada gunanya. Lagian hubungan kita dah "baik2" sejauh yang aku tau. Hehehe...
Okay, cerita singkat aja. Pagi2 dia bertanya sesuatu ke aku, padahal itu bukan bagianku. Nahhhh, aku pasti bingung, dan bertanya, "Kamu dapat data ini dari mana? Sebelumnya aku tidak pernah lihat ini."
Eee... dia menjelaskan dengan nada tinggi kalau ini semua adalah hasil jurnalku. Aku tersulut deh...
"Diperiksai dulu, baru bertanya."
Nah, gmana gak emosi tu?? aku bilang, "Ini bukan pekerjaanku."
"Taruh saja kalau tidak bisa mancari."
Ya, kutaruh.
Dat's ONE.

Siang nya dia membutuhkan rekapan dataku, untuk menelusuri sesuatu, tapi dia malah minta bantuan pada teman dekatku. Instruksinya juga tidak begitu jelas, jadi pas temanku itu kutanyai sebenarnya data mana yang kamu perlukan, dia juga tidak bisa menjawab dengan jelas. Temanku bilang disuruh ma Chief Asist (CA). Gluodakkk...
Menjengkelkan ini, kenapa tidak minta sendiri saja, pakai perantara temanku segala??
Dat's TWO.

Pertengahan hari dia menemukan sesuatu yang tidak cocok dengan rekapannya, tidak bertanya baik2, tapi bernada menyalahkan aku lagi. Dat's THREE.

Pas pulang, aku memang sengaja minta konfirmasi apakah pekerjaanku sudah benar. Jawabannya yang berbelit dan menghindar benar2 membuatku EMOSI, benar2 MENDIDIH. That's TEN.
Spontan aku meng update status di FB, dengan BB baru pula. Biar spektakuler... Kekanak-kanakan?? Whatever... Aku juga curhat mbe temen2ku yang ada di BB grup.

Sesudah e, aku berpikir-pikir lagi, kita low masih dalam satu bagian, kalo sampe bertengkar besar juga ga enakan ntar... Lagian emang aku tau dia orangnya begitu, suka emosian dan begitulah wes... Aku juga menyayangkan kenapa kok justru status yang kupakai untuk peluncuran BB baruku malah sesuatu yang jelek?? Besoknya aku berpikir akan melupakan hal ini bila dia berlaku baik ke aku. Bila dia masih sok2an?? Tidak tahu, aku belum memikirkan kemungkinan itu. WAR? Maybe...

Ternyata, keesokkan harinya, dia berubah baik ke aku. Tapi siangnya, seperti ada CCTV dipasang khusus buat aku, aku jadi tidak bebas seperti biasanya jadinya. Oke, aku mengurangi kegiatan cek HPku, benar2 mengurangi...

Ada hasil positif dari ini: pekerjaanku jadi lebih cepat terselesaikan... Yah, begitulah, kita dah back to normal... Thanks, CA! ^:^

"My enemy is my best motivator."
(Aku tidak menganggapmu musuh cuma bingung harus pake kata2 apa... Personally, right now I didn't hold a grudge to U.. ^c^,)

Go Left

There is ALWAYS another way....!
By: MindMadeMadness

Pengaduk besi dan garam

Seorang pemulung berjalan-jalan ditengah tumpukan sampah. Di tengah-tengah sampah tersebut ia menemukan sebuah pengaduk besi yang sudah tua dan berkarat. Sang pemulung kemudian memungut pengaduk besi tersebut dan kemudian meletakkannya di dalam tasnya. Kemudian ia pun berjalan lagi dan di dekat tempat ia menemukan pengaduk besi tadi, ia menemukan sebongkah garam dapur yang sudah sangat kotor. Garam tersebut kemudian ia pungut dan ia masukkan ke dalam tasnya juga. Di dalam tas si pemulung tersebut, garam dan pengaduk besi menjadi akrab. Mereka saling mengenal dan mengasihi satu sama lain, saling berbagi rasa, dan saling sharing tentang perjalanan mereka selama ini.

Sesampainya di rumah, si pemulung mengamplas pengaduk besi yang ia temukan tadi sehingga mengkilap kemudian melumurinya dengan minyak dan meletakkannya di tempat perkakasnya. Sedangkan bongkahan garam dapur yang ia temukan ia bersihkan dari kotoran-kotoran yang menempel padanya kemudian mencucinya sebentar dan meletakkannya di tempat bumbu dapur.

Pengaduk besi dan garam dapur sangat bersedih hati. Mereka yang sudah akrab merasa dipisahkan oleh si pemulung. Mereka menganggap si pemulung kejam karena telah memisahkan mereka. Dan mereka pun sepakat akan protes kepada si pemulung.

Akhirnya si pemulung mendengar protes kedua benda tersebut. Besi berkata “Tuanku, mengapa engkau memisahkan aku dari garam dapur. Ia sahabat sejatiku.” Garam dapur pun protes serupa : “Tidakkah sangat kejam tuan. Aku menyayangi pengaduk besi sahabatku. Mengapa engkau memisahkan kami ?”

Si pemulung menjawab mereka : “Hei pengaduk besi dan garam dapur. Tidak tahukah kalian bahwa jika kalian bersatu terlalu lama akan merusakkan satu sama lain. Tidak tahukah kalian bahwa garam dapur akan larut oleh uap air dan membentuk air garam. Air garam dapat bereaksi dengan besi dan menimbulkan karat kemudian karat itu akan mengotori kalian semuanya. Aku akan menyatukan kalian lagi saat aku memasak, kemudian aku akan membersihkan kalian lagi.

by Setitik Embun Inspirasi on Tuesday, July 12, 2011 at 7:43am

mind vs heart

know you no longer there,
but won't ask why.
won't ask questions that only make me cry.
know you had gone
and can't ask you to stay.

really miss those crazy moments...
times when your eyes fixed on me..
how come things turn out like this??
wish could turn back time..
and correct all those turnings
so that we can have those moments again.
notice me, take my hand please..
hold it always and
don't let go

#justbecause I don't say certain things, doesn't mean I don't feel them. #DamnItsTrue

I'm dying to talk to you but I'm not texting you first. #DamnItsTrue

Ku tak tau apa yang ada di pikiranku... Semuanya begitu membingungkan. Capek aku berada dalam semua ketidakpastian ini... semua ketakutan dan prasangka...
-Stephnie Alice-

I hate it when I'm sad for no reason :|
I love it when I'm happy for no reason. :D
#DamnItsTrue

Delta Goodrem Not Me, Not I

terbawa mood... being too carried away, back to normal...

terbawa mood... being too carried away, back to normal...

Sharing yourself with someone, letting them see all of you, the true you, can be a fearful time filled with worries of acceptance and if by doing so will they see you in a different light. Face this fear with the power of self love & the light inside you. If the person looks upon you w/changed eyes and walks away, you have lost nothing, for if they can’t see ”you” you never really had them. ♥ Michele Burnell

have so many questions
if only i am not afraid to ask
notice you have changed,
if only i ask you why
aware that you are leaving
......if only i ask you to stay
miss those funny sweet memories
if only i could turn back time
If only.. all if only.. just if only..
-Stephnie Alice-

There is nothing we like to see so much as the gleam of pleasure in a person's eye when he feels that we have sympathized with him, understood him. At these moments something fine and spiritual passes between two friends. These are the moments worth living.
- Don Marquis -

Your problem is how you are going to spend this one and precious life you have been issued. Whether you're going to spend it trying to look good and creating the illusion that you have power over circumstances, or whether you are going to taste it, enjoy it and find out the truth about who you are. ♥ Anne Lamott

Guide me to be a good gardener... Thank U..
-Stephnie Alice-

Seringkali ketika kita hilang Harapan
dan berpikir ini adalah akhir dari segalanya,
TUHAN tersenyum dari atas dan berkata
" Tenang Sayang, itu hanyalah belokan, bukan akhir !"
(lifelatos-@gerychocolatos )

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."~Elizabeth Kübler-Ross

I wont say "I'll never make you cry"; But I'll make you smile before ur tears get dry

Whatever your feelings for her,
The memories will always be there,
Whether it's good or bad.
Because everytime you remember those memories,
...it will always put a smile into your heart.
...And be glad that once in your life this person,
Made you happy and put colors into your life,

Even if it's just for a while.
I wont say "I'll never make you cry";
But I'll make you smile before ur tears get dry,
I wont say "I'll never tell you a lie;
But If I do, I do it for a reason, some day I'll tell you why,
I dont say "we'll never have a fight";
But I'll say I'm really sorry when I realize you were right.,
I dont say "Life together will be easy & bright";
But when things get tough.,
I'll hold you tight to me.,
I got nothing more to say,
I got nothing more to prove.,
But Always remember,
I love you forever !!!!!!

Source: Hidden Feeling

What a great poem!! ;DD

Teguran & Hadiah

Wew.. akhir2 nie bener2 hari2 yang super duper suibukkk buat aku...

Curhat niew, akhir2 ni laporanku emang telat 1 atau 2 hari. Ya, sudah berjalan kira2 3 bulanan... Alhasil minggu lalu kena tegur deh aku ma kabagku.. Jujur, kabagku tu sabar, dia bilangin aku pelan2... kenapa kok akhir2 ini kamu tidak pernah nyicil?? Semuanya kamu tumpuk di akhir bulan, jelas aja kamu jadi seperti overload...

Jujur, bukannya ga mau nyicil, tapi belum sempet nyicil, ada satu titik kejenuhan di pekerjaanku ini... juga akhir2 ni aku sering kurang tidur, jadi sering ngantuk saat kerja dan akhirnya yang kukerjakan salah deh... Wadowww, nek wes salah, cari kesalahan tu seperti cari jarum dalam tumpukaan jerami wes... Pernah, tidak balance, aku mencari sumber e, 3 jam gak ketemu, akhir e aku ganti mengerjakan pekerjaan seng lain dan kembali mengulang dari awal pekerjaan itu keesokan harinya.. Tidak sampai 1 jam pekerjaan tu sudah beres...

Intinya, sebenarnya kata2 kabagku benar, aku tidak bisa menyicil lagi karena aku tidak bisa me manage waktu dg baek akhir2 ini... Kabagku biasane gak pernah negur aku sampe segtu ne.. Ya, rodo2 DOWN titik deh...

Bisa nebak apa yang menungguku di rumah?? adekku beliin BB... wahahahhha... kok ngene yo? Teguran dan hadiah di hari yang sama. Menurut pikiranku, BB bisa membuatku malah susah membagi waktu... Akhirnya aku mikir gni, wes pokok e aku ga bakal bawa BB ke kantor sampe aku bisa menyelesaikan lapku ONTIME bulan ini...

Sejauh niew, berhasil ONTIME.. kuselesaikan sesuai target... Tapi niew baru sparuh jalan... Cia yo, Phanili!!

Thanks 4 the Oratio

"bak berjalan di tebing yang sangat sempit... terlalu ke kanan, jatuh... terlalu ke kiri jatuh... bisakah selamat melewatinya??Arus, minta doanya ya??" ;)
-Stephnie Alice-

She's tough. She tries to hide it. She's difficult. But if you make an effort, she's worth it. #DamnItsTrue

Sometime Somewhere

I do my thing and you do your thing
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations
And you are not in this world to live up to mine
You are you and I am I
And if by chance we find each other
...It is beautiful
---Frederick Perls´ Gestalt prayer---
Source: Lessons Learned In Life




Speechless message with deep feelings:
"Both are quiet but have hundreds of things running in the mind..
Both are missing each other badly but want the other 1 to initiate the conversation..
Both want to be with each other, to fight, to argue, to show love, but would pretend that they are fine without each other..
Both want to meet each other, but will not say anything and wait silently..
They would send each other taunting msgs but would not tel that 'Stupid I am missing U' "..
This is luv..sometimes we miss out on most luvable moments just because we want the other one to take the first step.
Showing love might improve the situation but showing ego definetely ruins it .:-)
By: Love is beautiful -Love-Laugh-Live-