Trust U full

Sesuatu... Sir Cake of Courage... (Ganti nama panggung Mr Twist of Fate mu dg ini... hahaha...) Trust You full to get thru this, God...

Hallo, hari ini aku pergi dengan anak2 mudika... Tuhan, jujur sebenarnya aku tidak percaya diri menghadapi teman2ku... sepertinya aku seperti anak kecil saja... but, that's ME..

Jalan2 ke TP dan juga main bom bom car... aku benar2 senang berkumpul bersama mereka... Kita memang berkumpul karena kita berteman tanpa ada rasa apa2... tertawa sampai perut sakit karena tidak ada keputusan tentang kemana kita mau pergi... Setiap orang punya tujuan sendiri2... sampai Dettol bingung ( Once i fell for you Dettol, now you have already had a gf... I am happy for you... WYATB...) kamu sudah memutar mobilmu sampai berapa kali... hahaha...

Diam, kamu memang yang pertama yang membuatku berani melewati zona nyamanku... Semua itu terjadi karena Night Watcher club... 2 girls, 1 boy and 1 man... it never occur to me that things will turn out like this...

God, i wish I could be more REAL open with other... If i only count on my own capability, I will fail. Please help me... I trust You full. You know what's best for me... ( Somehow tonight i hope and then fall again... God, tonight actually i want to ask why? why? to Diam, but i don't have that courage... God, you understood me best... God, i am OK... hahaha... I wish i wont be mellow... God, if he is there, give him courage... otherwise please tuntun aku to pick the right path... )

Aku pingin berteman, tapi rupanya tidak mudah buat begitu.. perasaan selalu terbawa... ya, aku harus bbm dengan orang lain (berlatih berteman... freak yach?? hahaha... but that's true) juga saat BBM an dg mu... Jujur, batas antara fren n lover, aku masi ga bisa tarik garis... sebab aku ga banyak berteman dg cowo, tepatnya nyaris ga pernah deket dg cowo...

Wakakaka... ni emang personal diary... karena tu aku nulis nya lompat2.. tergantung yang ada di pikiranku... Tadi aku ditanyai oleh arek2 mudika "what criterias" Tuhannnn, they're smaller than me but they're more mature.. (apa tidak terbalik??)

... that there are times when a change of direction is for your highest good. It takes courage to change direction. Choose the path your heart agrees with and walk with your head high and your eyes open. Don't be afraid. @Message from God.

Okeee, start from this point onward I will put everything in place...
1. I hope I can earn more money from giving tuition
2. I wanna learn how to drive
3. I wanna be pretty
4. I wanna forget this matter, I wanna meet n get to know and get closer to some1 new.. (Some1 like Garmatin)----> Suka ngomel, tapi bisa kugodain, mengerti aku, dan tegas, klo bisa tinggi min sama mbe aku... hehehe... n seiman (kan aku selalu membayangkan kita sekeluarga masuk gereja bersama...)
Like how I get closer to Garmatin, I hope it will happen that way... AMIN.

God, honestly i am not ready for m*****g*. GOd, you understand all there in my heart. I trust U full. God, I wanna know more people n please show me the one that really capture my heart... Like how I get closer to Garmatin, I hope it will happen that way... I trust You full.