Rabu, 16 Februari 2011

Doubt

Masih ingat bagaimana mellow nya aku beberapa hari lalu?? Yah, soal nya aku memang pusing kenapa aku harus terjebak dalam situasi ini?? Yang satu teman baik dalam genk ku, sedang yang lain seseorang yang membuatku tertarik… Aku benar2 terjepit, tidak berdaya melawan ke curigaan ku sendiri, berusaha berbesar hati, tapi susah…. Rasanya tidak tahu harus berbuat apa, dan pingin menghilang saja…
When in doubt, do it. –-Paulo Coelho—

Lalu, aku memberanikan diri berdoa mohon yang terbaik buat semua… tidak peduli bagaimana selanjutnya… ada ketakutan juga bagaimana bila aku yang gigit jari?? Pasti aku susah… tapi, sebaliknya, bila aku seneng, berarti Why yang susah. Aku tidak suka keadaan itu…

I have no idea where I am going
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going,
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
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in Thoughts in Solitude by Thomas Merton. Published on February 15, 2011 on Paulo Coelho's blog.


“I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.” Benar2 kata-kata yang menentramkan, tapi tidak mudah, beberapa kali aku tiba2 merasa takut dan cemas…. Kemudian aku teringat kata2 ini: “Don’t say that you have a big problem, but say to your problem that you have a big God.”
I trust You, Father!

I know not what the future holds, but I know Who holds the future... --Maria Kristika—

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