Cake of Courage

Banyak kejadian yang buat aku naek turun 2 minggu ini....

Mengurusi kado buat anak e KokBa... Felt so depressed cos couldn't do anything 4 ur Bird Day.. Wept cos finally it's Why who bought the gift 4 U...
The next day, decided to summon courage to order that cake... (spiku coklat semua, blackforest, spiku biasa...)

Office: "HBD, sesuatu..." Stock Opname, maybe couldn't make it...
Home: Wore my newest dress..
Pizza: Felt so nervous... Took that salad with shivering hands..
(Saw you wore that shirt.. Somehow it slapped me in the face.. Woke me up of the fact that you are nothing compared to her... they are so close...)
Actually, before any of those things happen, my mind always warn me to prepare for the worst thing.. At that time, I just felt that all my effort is ZERO..

Maybe it's time for you to retreat... If I try, I will hope... If I hope, I could be hurt... Exhausted...

I had already done whatever best that I could... Then, for the rest, It's up to you all...
Let's be FRIEND!! (90 vs 09) turn into (60 vs 09)
As a friend, I won't give too much, thus i also won't expect much.. To keep a friendship, it must be done 2 ways. Hope you will be more considerate and sensitive...

Love is a big sacrifice, isn't it? You try to forgive and forget, but you still give it a try. You are hurt, but you still continue to love. You were betrayed, but you still hope. And the big hit? You've been left, but you still wait.
~Hidden Feeling~
(Soorry... I am not this idealistics... Honestly, I am exhausted.. If I push too hard, that's not ME...)

I really tried to be as sincere as possible... (that's why from this point onwards, i won't give if i still expect something more than friends..)